down to the ground

[sienamystic]

I'm not really sure how much longer my coping faculties can hold out. Things are just...not really great right now. Bemo went into the ER last week because his tooth pain was getting out of control, and the bill for that one just arrived. Plus an ominous one from the regular dentist that I have to investigate, because it looks like what they're saying is that our dental insurance doesn't cover his procedure at all. Which means that we'll have to foot the entire bill for his next three visits to the endodontist to finish up his root canal. Or that we don't have dental insurance - which we do. I'm pretty sure turning off the cable is coming next, and after that, I'm not sure.

The computer's video card appears to be royally effed, which means a new motherboard.

Frankly, I'm trying really hard right now now to just dissolve into a crying, hysterical mess. It wouldn't do any good, but it would feel great. Actually, what I really want to do is just stop. Just not bother anymore. I think it's pretty fucking clear that we'll never be able to get a house of our own - I can barely put any money away from month to month. I'm just apparently not diciplined enough to cope with finances, but I'm the only one here that can do it, unless one of the cats goes out and gets an MBA. And I don't think I'm capable enough. I feel like I've made nothing but bad choices, and now I'm reaping the results.

Comments

[dichroic.livejournal.com]

Ouch. Nothing useful to offer, just sorry to hear you're having rough times. < hugs > if you want them.

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

Hugs always appreciated, thanks.

[(Anonymous)]

If there is anything you need let me know, hon. I know how you feel. I am at the wire, too, with endless med bills. I'll say some prayers.
Jess

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

Hey, sweetie. I know, you're not in a great boat either. I'm keeping you in my thoughts.

[rantipole6.livejournal.com]

I think I know how you feel. I work all the time and still barely make enough money to stave off a pit of debt that wants to eat my face off. Anytime one of the dogs gets sick, it's a large unexpected bill. And then I have friends expecting me to go out and do cool stuff, but I'm broke!

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

YES EXACTLY. It's like there's no time to just relax and take a deep breath without having to fret about something.

[(Anonymous)]

Oh sweetie, I wish things were better. You sound overwhelmed by stuff that you can't control right now. I don't have any solid advice, except to say maybe don't worry about a house so much right now. It will come. You guys just moved and are still getting settled in many ways. And apply for that $600 rebate anyway, no matter how long it takes to arrive (from your previous post). It's yours, dammit. Also, apparently today is National Doughnut Day. I think my very best advice would be something like "Get thee a chocolate glazed cruller."

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

Oh my lord, how did I not know such an important holiday was coming up?

Yeah, I just feel like I haven't managed to set my feet down on solid ground and I'm still having to duck things swinging at my head.

I'm totally going to fight for my portion of the stimulus check, though. I have the form in my tote bag and will be filling it out over lunch today.

[(Anonymous)]

Previous message was from me, Kate-h, by the way. :-) *types quickly so she can run downstairs to look for any available doughnuts...*

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

Doughnuts have magically appeared upstairs in the kitchen. Obviously, the gods are smiling on us this Doughnut Day.

[genarti]

Oh, hon.

No good advice, but lots of hugs and good thoughts coming your way. :-/

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

Thank you. Good thoughts are much appreciated.

I officially SUCK

[(Anonymous)]

as a friend. Have been wanting to call for days. Will do so ASAP. I'm so sorry all this is happening.

xoxoxo
Cher

Re: I officially SUCK

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

Aww, is ok. I'm just feeling overwhelmed, which I suppose isn't anything new. And Becs is going to see if she can help me with some of this crap.