World's tiniest pity party

[sienamystic]

I am stressed out like whoa from work. It's the longest stretch of stress where I have not (to this moment) broken down into some sort of ugly crying fit once I got home - I'm not sure if I'm proud that I'm managing, or feeling like I should just have one to release the pressure.

Essentially, I'm going through a really big learning process, and I hate the fact that I'm dragging some people along with me and making their lives difficult. Things are getting done, but not elegantly. And the big boss is in full-tilt ADHD mode, where he is unavailable for long stretches of time in the planning stages and then spins into your own carefully laid plans like a whirlwind and disrupts everything so you don't know if you're coming or going or if you have ever made a right choice in your miserable life.

I have a lot of dominoes lined up for tomorrow morning, and I'm worried that they will not fall properly because of my mistakes. I hope very hard that all goes the way I want it to.

Comments

[antisoppist]

I am awake at 3 in the morning here, working because it was better than lying in bed for another four hours with my head going round in circles. I sympathise and hope your dominoes fall the right way for you tomorrow.

[sienamystic]

Oh gosh, yes, I know that feeling. I envision it as a dog chasing its own tail, that endless circling. L.M. Montgomery's "white nights."

Thank you for the good wishes on the dominoes.

[akamarykate]

Good luck tomorrow-- and, if possible, good sleep tonight.

(My coping strategies fall along the lines of repeating, "It'll all be over in X hours, one way or another." I don't know if that works for everyone, though!)