somebody do me some kind of favor

[sienamystic]

At home, crampy and irritable. I ended up sleeping until about one-thirty, which thrilled the cats to no end - I woke up surrounded by content snoring furballs.

Yesterday, I got the results back in from the bloodwork, and as I really did expect, the numbers weren't good. They didn't set off the big whoop-whoop emergency sort of sirens, but they did set of the insistent beep-beep something-needs-to-be-done-now alarm, and I'll be meeting with my doctor next week to discuss things. Obviously, I'm at one of those crossroads here, where I can't continue to ignore all my bad habits, or try to continue rationalizing them away into being "not that bad." I haven't joined Weight Watcher's yet, but I will be, and I think I've decided that the meetings are likely to be more helpful than not, so I think I'll do the monthly pass thing and see how that works.

I'm scared that I won't be able to do this, because I never have managed it before. I'm not very good at changing myself, even when I really need to. I want to be chirpy and can-do and all of that good stuff, but I can't seem to find my way to that place, where I take one or two simple hints and basic steps, and before you know it, look! Your life has improved, you're closer to your goal! I am going to proceed cautiously, and quietly, and try to make this happen.

Aaannnnd, speaking of making things happen, I have to have to have to finish up my Yuletide story. I've got a very promising beginning, but that's about where things stop. Will work on it tonight and over the weekend.

Comments

maybe helpful?

[(Anonymous)]

You know, this is really not a situation that calls for cheery cliches. But we had a speaker in the juvie home for the kids the other day, and he had something to say that stuck with me when attempting something really intimidating and hard.

1. Only one day at a time.
2. Double your rate of failure.

The "double your rate of failure" thing really stuck with me. Babe Ruth struck out more than anyone else in baseball.

Love you,
Cherbear

Re: maybe helpful?

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

Good advice, sweetie - thanks a bunch.

[gwyneira.livejournal.com]

If Weight Watchers doesn't help, maybe try SparkPeople? I have a terrible time with groups of people and could never do Weight Watchers, but I've found SparkPeople very helpful. I especially like how they encourage the development of good habits and have found that even though I'm still struggling with weight issues, the good habits are tending to stick with me.

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

I had an account on Sparkpeople for a little while, and the format just didn't work for me at all. Not sure what it was, exactly, just that it didn't engage me in the right ways. But if WW doesn't work, I may give it another go.

[dickgloucester.livejournal.com]

Me too. 18 kg. :-(

[sienamystic.livejournal.com]

I've got far more than that, sadly. But I'll start in the region of 15 lbs (about 7 kilos) as my first goal, looking at the way Weight Watchers tries to structure things. Small, reachable goals first. Otherwise everybody would get discouraged!